confessions of a humbled kris, personal

I believe all I have to say right now is that I do not have it all together. I’m not the best photographer, I can barely keep up with my emails and I don’t have all of my relationships in tact. I am terrible at time management, I should not own a phone and when it comes down to it, my attitude isn’t in check.

I cannot run a business on my own. In fact, I can’t even type a simple sentence without much cooperation from my brain and attention span. Sometimes I’m so overwhelmed with the photos on my desktop, I walk away passionately to the fridge. Or tv. Sometimes both. I’m wordy, I’m bossy I’m emotional and I don’t deserve anything I have. And you know what? that’s okay. I am steadily realizing that I don’t need to be great on my own. I CANT be great on my own. I have failed and I will continue to do so if I do not keep myself in check. If I do not keep myself indebted to Christ. What I want is to show the world the joy He has given me. I don’t want to be the best photographer, I don’t even want to be an okay photographer. I want to love a world that is broken and empty and show them the joy the Lord has brought me.

If for nothing else, here is me admitting I am nothing without my God. Everything I am is because I have a God who believes I’m better than what I feel like, a best friend who is beyond self-less, a family who believes in me and supports me and a wesley who will wait for me, patiently. My heart is heavy but thank you for reading, and for getting all the way to this sentence. What a pal you are. Thankfully, He brings things back into focus for me. Daily.